म आजकल केही दिन देखि एक्लो जस्तो हुदै दिन काटिरहेको छू . लिवर को काम छोड़ने भनेर काका संग भने पछि त झन त्यों परिवार बाट पनि मैले पौने ब्यवहार मा आकाश पाताल को फरक पाउन थालेको छू, हिजो काका काठ्मांडू पुगेर मलाई कल गर्नु भो की मैले अंटी लाई चेक छोड़ी दिएको छू त्यों लिएर नरेश दाई लाइ २००००/- अणि क्यान्तिन वाला लाइ ३०००/- दे भन्नुभयो अनी मैले पनि हुन्छ भनेर अंटी संग गएर मागे. अनी कुन को हो? बी.के को चेक हो की ऐ.बी. को हो थाहा छीना त भन्नुभये पछि मैले चाहि एज युजल दुई वटा नै दिनुस अनी कुन चाहि मा छैन त्यही फिर्ता लिएर आउला भने, तर म माथी को बिस्वास सकिसकेको रहेछ रा तुरुन्तै काकालाई कल गरेर कुन चाहि चेक दिने हो भनेर सोध्नु भयो रा बी.के. को भन्ने जवाफ पाए पछि मलाई चेक दिनु भयो र कलम त तं संग होला क्यारे भरेर लैजा भन्नु भयो अनी मैले के बुझे भने मैले धेरै पैसा निकालेर मिसयूज गर्छ भनेर अंटी ले त्यसो गर्नुभयेछ ठीकै छ.

Paisaa ko laarobaar ma biswaas nagarnu ekdum thik ho tara pani hijo samma malai 4/5 wata blank checque chhodera hidne manchhe ko tyasto behaviour dekhe pachi chahi malai achammai lagera aayo. Asti kaka yuvraaj ko bihe ko lagi kathmandu janchhu bhandai hunuhunthyo tara lever ma dinbhari Deepak Daai sanga baseko dekhe ani malai bihanai chiya khane belama suraj daile 3.00 baje tira fursad milaau hai bhanu bhayeko bhayera ma 3.00 baje tira kunaal laai mero alikati kaam chha hai bhanera niskiye ta Jyoti Mahila, Ashok Dai, ani Suraj dai malai kurera school ma basiraheka rahechhan ani Bhaise jana lageko ali ali nasta khayera aaune hai bhanera tyatatira lagiyo. Tyata aliali khanpin garera Pashupatiko jaatra lagne din bhayeko bhayera hupra chaur tira lage ani tyaha gaye pachi malai tyahi ghar ek palta herna man lagyo jaha kehi samaya agadi jaana malai ekdumai ramaailo lagdathyo ra I remember ki first time khajaa khana bolayera jaada kheri paanile namajjale bhijeko ko ramaailo jun ma bulna chaahera pani bhulna sakdina ti ghatanaa haru aakha agadi jhaljhali aaye ani Ashok Dai le Bhai chinta nagar Kaala gaye gora aauchhan Baau Gaye chhora aauchhan k bhako ta mero jindagi ma ta ganera herya haina agi bharkhari 13 jana kt aaye bhanera ta eutai sanga le garda k sarho hang bhako?

Yastai ho ek tira yahi case le garda dimaag tens bhairahewko chha, arko tira khanaal niwaas ko ta kurai nagarau. jhan ahile ta Deepa le pani malai tens garaairaheko chhe. Jahile pani kehi kuro gardai gaye ani "Yo ta Bidari Khandaan Ko Khaasiyat Nai Ho Ni" bhanera bhanihalchhe jun I hate most. Ani maile Pradip and Sushil Dai bhayeko thau ma Malai yo kura gareko man parena tyasaile side lagera baseko bhane, sayad Pradip le tyo kura gayera ta bhanyo hola, and I understood that she wanted to be far weth the relationship that was betweem us. Chaahe yo choor athawaa Daaka kai khandaan kina nahos everyone should be proud of his family and relatives and maile tyaslai pahile pani bhaneko thiye ki i hate this kind of talkine and not once tyasle 2/3 palta maile bhanda bhandai pani dohoryai rahanchhe bhane maile k bujhne ta? yahi ki malaai down dekhayera she aafai lai nikai thulo khandaan ko bhanera pramanit garna chaahanchhe tara "Malaai pani Thaaha chha ko ko kati paani maa chha" bhanne kura, ani tyahi bhayera ma tyasko ghar trira pani aawat jaawat kam garna thaleko chhu.

my childhood pics and others

What a Nice reply

Few days ago maile www.forum.welovenepal.com ma gazal post gareko thiye jun yas kisim ko thiyoतपाईं नै भन्नुस् के हो टाइटल « on: July 14, 2008, 04:25:11 PM » Quote Modify --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
तिम्रा याद सङै झर्छन बिहानीमा शीतहरु
मात्र समाउछु कलम आँफै बन्छन गीत हरु।।।

साथ थियौ जब तिमी साथ थिए सबै मेरा
मात्र टाढा भयौ तिमी टाढिएछन मीत हरु।।।

एक झल्को मुस्कान देख्न तिम्रो मिठो अधरमा
तिमीलाई नै उपहार मेरा सयौ ।।।

कसम तोड्ने बानी रैछ तिमी धोके निस्ठुरीको
आँफै बनाइ आँफै तोड्यौ पिरतीका रीत हरु।।।।

Ani reply was like this from Ice and I think this one is perfect reply for my type of Gazal.

बिहानिको शीत सँगै झरे पनि याद हरु,
घाम का यि किरण सँग जुड्छन फेरी साथ् हरु,

अझै पनि मेरो मन मा तिमीलाई नै सजएको छु,
समाज ले भड्काइदिये बनी सकेका बात हरु,

तिमी बिना मुहारको हासो पनि खल्लो लाग्छ,
समेट्दैछु बिख्रिएर भात्किएका आँट हरु,

मुटु पोल्छ अझै मेरो निस्ठुरिको दाग लाग्दा,
तिमीले नै पढएका हौ पिरती का पाठ हरु,

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Yesterday I was at bed after meal and because of load shedding was just playing games on mobile and at that time Sushil bro miss called and I send MMS and he replied sorry I am at sieter's house now so plz we will meet tomorrow ok? and I replied like that "Tapain Pari nai bhayeko bhaye pani ma tyaha aaune thiyena, aba tyasto thulo khandaan bhako manchhe bhayeko ghar ma haami jasto khaasiyat nabhayeko khandaan ko manchhe ka aaunu haina ra?" ani chhotye didnt understand that mms and called me and I found he was at home and call him on the road. Meeting him I make him remember that Deepa's saying that "This is the speciality of Bidari Family" and he feel good because he was in dialema that i was angry with him.After that he told me that he talked with Binu and found that it will be fine if I stop thinking and talking about her. Listening that I told him "This is the same thing I have been telling you for 15 days ago I was right na?" And he replied "yes You were right"After that talk with him I feel very free because maile jati sukai bhane pani there was a littlew bit hope that she was positive but after that I was totally cleared. And now i haven't any thinking for her. If I meet her in future I have decided to talk without any hesitation.Ani arko kura aayo chhote sanga ko. Bade Dubai gaye pachi aajkal ma chhote sanga nikai najik bhayeko chhu chhote pani din bhari kaam hudaina ani kahile film herera ani kahile yata uta dulera time pass garna khojchha. Asti Passport banauna bhanera Saroj parajuli lai call gareko thiye office ma aaunu bhanyo ani tyaha gayera 3 hours jati wait gariyo tara didnt came. ani tyahi time ma usko ra mero bich ma dherai kuraharu bhayo usko Deepa sanga ko affair dekhi liyera mero Binu sanga kasari kuro agadi badhyo bhanne samma ko kuro bhaye pachhi usle la malai thaha bhayo Binu le u lkai like garchhe ma ek palta kura garera herchhu herchhu bhanyo ani maile pani kura gardai nagarnus yadi garnai pare pani mero tarpha bata down bhayera kuro gareko thaahaa paye bhane bholi palta dekhi ma sanga nabhete hunchha bhanidiye. Ani tyahi bhayera kura gareko rahechha ra tyo answer paye pachhi dangaa pareko chha ani tyo din malai k bhandai thiyo bhane yo keti ko jaat ekdum khattam hune rahechha no pani bhanne ani ful ma mahuri jhummiyeko jasto garera daya baya ghumayera rakhna pani khijne. Maile pani ekdum thiuk ho bhanera bhanidiye.Ani tyaha kaam nabane pachi ghara tira farkidai thiyau Bagthali ko ukalo ma Bishnu Khanal lai bhet bhayo US bata aako Yuvraj Khanal lai Kathmandu bata pick up garera aaudai rahechha ani malai rokyo ani 700/- diyera bajar bata sendo and panty liyera aaijo na bhanyo ani maile pani la la ma chikni terai din chha aaja bholi mero manchhe maile ja kaam lagaye pani hunchha bhanthaneko holas thik chha ahile bajar bata aaudai chha chaahiyeko kuro liyera aauna sakdaina thiyo ta bhanthane ani Chhote sanga chitta dukhaai ko kura gardai bajaar gayera liyera aaidiye.Asti keshav dai lai pani online ma bhet bhayeko thiyo ani malai gali gardai thiye ta jahile pani malai bhete pachi bholi nai kathmandu aayera padhna thalchu bhanchhas ani ma sanga chhuttine bittikai slow speed ma kehi pani gardainas bhanera ani maile haina dai maile ta aba job pani give up garin sake aba ta pakka aayera padchhu bhane ani ta study start garne bela ma malai contact gar bhandai hunuhunthyo. ok aba baaki arko din ma lekhaula.

Bike Accident

Yo jindagima pani k k hunchha k k? K sochera lever bata hideko thiye tara k bhayo????????/Dashai sakkisakeko thiyo sushil Dai Me Pradip ani Sandeep Dai IK ko ghar agadi ko dhunga ko thupro ma basera kura gariraheka thiyau. Sunitako phone aayo ani Rudai "Tapai ko ghar chheu ka manchhe haru ta kasta kasta rahechah Sujit Dai?" Bhani ani maile pani k bhayechha bhanera "K bhayo?" bhanera sodhe Ta Khanalni Hajuramale Sunita ko mamaghar, Dhorsing, Dashai ma gayeko belama "YO sunita ta jahile pani hamro ghar chheu ko keta sanga bike chadhera hidchhe, ani jahile pani tyaha gairahanchhe" bhanera duniya volt halidiyera aako rahechhan ani mamaghar bata sunita ko mom maita gako belama thaaha paye pachi Sunita sanga kura garechhan ani Sunita le malai bhani. Malai tyo bela dekhi Hajuraamako anuhaar pani herna man lageko chhaina. Ra malai lageko pani thiyena ki hajuraama tyatti ko paakhandi hunuhunchha bhanne, maile ta bujhe ki yastai ho bhanera tyo sunita lai kasto lagya hola bhanera malai ajhai pani achamma lagrako chha.Ani aaja ko kura Lever ma electrical yard ma haleko PCC ko bill dina gayeko thiye ani sabai ko rate pass bhaisakeko raichha tara stone soaling ko rate napayeko bhayera farkiyera aauna lageko thiye Laxman Maharjan le Tirtha Dahal ko ghar jana lageko aaja Bike liyera aako chhaina deu na bhanyo ra Xl ma petrol nabhayeko bhayera Ramelai timro bike deuna bhanera ghara aayeko thiye ghara aaune bittikai Hajuraama le aaja Kumar mama ko chhoriko barakhi re jasari bhaye pani aaunu bhannubhayeko chha malai puryaideu na la? bhannu bhayo ani maile pani lever ma hakim le bike mageko bhayera peterol halna jana lageko Tirtha Daiko ghar bata farkiye pachi ma aauchhu ni ta bhanera hide. Ani Bajar aaipugeko matra thiye Solution Nepal agadi euta fuchchi Bato katna lageko rahechha ani malai aairaheko dekhera kata jau kata bhayera bicha mai rokiye ani maile pani bheu nai paiyena ki kata jana lagi kata bhanera ra break handa handai tyaslai right hand side ko handle le lagyo ra bike oani tyahi mathi dhalna pugyo. Hatta na patta bike side lagayera Euta Rikshaw bolaye ani tyaslai ani tyasko aamalai rakhera ma pani tyasaima Hospital tira lage. Tyaha gayera medecine ani x-ray samet garera something 1000/- jati kharchha bhayo ani liscence JI. Pra. Ka. mai chhodera aaye. sochdai thiye ki aaja jindagi ma arko naya anubhav batuliyo chahe 1000/- kharchhai kina nahos, ajha dhanna 1000/- le matrai pugyo katai haat khutta nai bhachhiyeko bhaye ta babaal kharchha po hunthyo ta bhanne sochera chitta bujhaudai thiye hajuraama le call garnu bho ani maile pani Tirtha daiko ghar bata farkeka nai chhainan aaune bittikai ma aaihalchhu feri tiniharuko phone nai lagekio chhaina bhanera bhane ani turuntai mobile lai flight mode ma rakheko ahile samma open gareko chhaina

They Hanged Me For Long Time

Binu and Deepal le malai nikai din hang mai rakhe. ek din Shiddhartha school ma concert thiyo ani tyaha pugeko matrai thiye miss call aayo ani maile call garera gali garidiye kina bhane hijo beluki maile call garda dui full ring jada pani receive bhako thiyena ani sarhai ris uthirakheko thiyo. ani concert suru huna lagyo bhanera maile call katidiyeko ta dipa le turuntai call garera "tapaile k bhannu bhayeko? Binu ta runa po thali" bhani ani maile call garera la la dherrai nataunki garera runu pardaina maile majak gareko matrai ho bhane pachi la la thik chha bhanera kura tungyaye.Uniharuko exam sake pachhi 31st Ashwin maa tiniharu both Nawalpur aaye ani bholipalta mero birthday ko din malai bihanai Birthday wish gardai greeting di, Binu le. Ani maile pani thank you bhani Chure tira lage Gyanu and ma. Ani yatai basdai jada maile usko ra mero kura huda kheri ko sabai record haru uslai sunaaidiye ani usle "malai ta yasto man parena" bhani ani maile pani "tension bhako bela ma sunda mind fresh hunchha k" bhanera bhanidiye oo pani hasdai thiye.Ek din Lever ma kota stone lagauna ko lagi night basnu parne bhayeko thiyo ani Purshottam guragain, Thapa sir. pande Budha ani Uncle sanga basera tannai beer khaaiyechha ra phone garera bholi ko method ko exam ma jasari bhaye pani 60% over hunai parchha bhanera threaten diyechhu.Usle pani huncha bhani. Ani yata Deepa ko ghar ma aaye pachhi malai miss call hanirahane garthi ani maile pani call gardathiye. Ani jaba ma tyaha janthiye ma jane bittikai ma sanga mobile magera chalauna thalthi ani maile pani dinthiye. Yasari nai maile pani jiskaaudai thiye ani ek din sandip dai lai maile jag haldiko thiye "jabo k tyo kt lai propose nagareko hola tapaile" bhanera ani deepa le malai dilogue hani "kattina aafu chahi yatro bhaisakyo ahile samma himmat garna nasakne ajha arulai k bhani rako ni?" bhani ani maile pani ho hai bhanera side lage. yasari nai chaldai jada Binu ko ghar jane din aayo ani Deepal pani uslai chhadna jana lageko rahechha ani malai beluka sms garera binu le " hami ta bholi bihana jana lageko milne bhaye bihana ek palta aaunu kyare" bhani ani maile pani hunchha bhanera reply garidiye. Ani bholipalta bihanai bhetera batoma gadi kurera basiraheko belama Niroj Bhote aayera lever tira jana hataro garna thalya bhayera la jadai gara hai ta bhanera ma lever tira lage.uniharu ghara puge pachi malai aaipugiyo bhanera call gare ani 3/4 din tyata basera deepa pani yatai aayi. Ani Deepa yata aaye pachi Binulai call gareki rahina chha ani Maile sodheko thiye binu lai "Deepa sanga contact chha ki chhaina " bhaner ani Binu le " aba Deepa le ma sanga contact nagarne re bhani ani maile kina ni banera sodhda tapai ko ra mero contact bhaihalchha ani mero halkhabar tapai sangai sodhne bhaneki chhe. bhani ani malai pani achamma lagyo tiniharu ko kura sunera. yasari nai usle kahile dai ko kahile bhai ko ani kahile didi ko mobile bata miss call garthi ani maile call back gari contact hudai thiyo. ek din mero mobile ma balance nabhako bela ma miss call aayo ani sandip dai ko mobile bata call garera guff hanidiye yata aayo bhane ta aba farkanai nadine bhanera ani hudai hudaina bhanne answer paye pachi tyaso bhaye yatro contactr bhako k upalabdhi bhayo ta bhane. malai thaha thiyena ki tyo UPALABDHI bhanne word lai usle tyasto deeply liyeko rahichha bhanne. tyasko charchha pachhi samma pani hudai thiyo.Ani kuro aayo Dashai ko Nawami ko din ko. Uncle ko ghar ma Factory manager ani Vishnu sir aayeko thiye ani haluka partyu chaldai thiyo, malai miss call aayo binu ko, ani chicken rost banauda banaudai call gare ani aaja ta dashai ko din beer khairako bhane ani dherai nakhanu hai bhani. Kura sakne bittikai Aunt le dialogue hannubhayo "here na hera girlfriend ko call aayeko" bhanera ani khadai jada malai pani halka lagechha. Ani maile fresh mood ma Binulai bhanna nasakne bhaye bhanera tyahi din bhanu ki kya ho pradip bhanera sallaha gare usle panu hunchha dai bhanyo, malai pani k lagya thiyo bhane euta formality ta ho ni I know she love me bhanne thiyo. malai Ashok dai ani Bhim le pahilyai dekhi bhane ka thiye ki ta k bhako bhai tyasto kt ko lagi jyan diyera lagi pareko chhas chhod de yaar bhanera. ani maile pani uniharulai dekhauchha aaja bhanera bolayera agadi rakhera ph garere pradip lai bolna diye katai didi harule po uthauchhan ki bhanera ani usle nai receive gare pachi maile mobile liyera sidha kura gare. "euta kura sodhnu thiyo sodhchhu hai ekdum straight answer chahiyo baru time chahinchha bhane bholi ans dida pani hunchha bhane" ani usle naai naai nasodhnu bhandai thiye ani maile pani eklai ki aro kohi hunuhunchha bhanera sodhdha haina kohi pani hunuhunna bhane pachhi "Do you love me" bhanera sodhe, ma ta shocked after listening the answer from her "NO". Only I know how i felt at that time in front of Ashok Dai and Bhim jaba ki maile unuharulai sunaauna ko lagi bhanera matrai bolaai bolaai agadi rakhera dhukka bhayera sodheko thiye tyo pani hands free garera. Ani maile pani "ma aaja samma bhram mai rahechhu haina ta?" bhanera sodhe ani yadi hoina bhane k upalabdhi bhayo ta yatti contact bhayeko? bhanera feri sodhe, malai thaha thiyena ki tyo upalabdhi bhanne word ko tyarro bhumika hunchha bhanne. ani maile yo timro aafnai decesion ho ta bhanera sodhdha ekdum mero aafnai decesion ho bhanne answer paye pachi ok I am sorry I was wrong bhanera kura tungyaaiyo. Ani Ashok dai ani bhim le kehi bhandai thiye malai I forgot that all now.....................................Ani bholi palta bihanai sms aayo jun yaha maile thyakkai copy gardai chhu "Hi, maile garda hajurko mob kobal sakinthyo bhane sory 4 tht n hajurle chahanu bhaeko jasto maile garna sakina tyasko lagi m really very soryok by happy dasami" ani maile pani yaso bhanera reply garidiye " Haina haina sorey ta maile po bhannuparne ta< binakaran timilai katti gali gare ani never tried to understand you lets 4get it and celebrate dashai happily".Dimag tence bhairako thiyo ani ghar ma taas khelera .......................bako arko post ma

First Talk With Binu

Hijo HID ma D.G. Room ko lagi samaan haru Tayal Brothers bata lagera Pandit ko ma aayera Rame le futayeko Anna Lifan ko side light nikalera euta matrai side light liyera Krishi Bikash Bank gayera 30 kitta share liyera aauna lageko thiye ani Dipa lai ek palta call garnu paryo bhanera gareko thiye ani "ek palta aaunu na" bhaneko bhayera tyaha gayeko thiye Pradip pani tyahi pugeko rahechha Baba Sahakari ma job ko lagi Nivedan lekhna bhanera ani tyaha basera tyasko Niveden lekhidiyera tyaslai baba sahakari ma chhodidiyera ghara aaye. Ani Ashok dai sanga ekchhin School ma basera bajaar aaiyo ani SaiRam Baa le mero photo lera aaijo hai bhaneko bhayera pic lina bhanera Roop Vhhaya Studio Kantiraajpath ma pugera Ashok Dailai oralera studio ko side ma turn garna khojeko ta bike ko front tyre sleep khayera paltiyo ani arko side ko side light pani futyo.Tyaha bata photo liyera gaiyo school road ani Brodband ma basera asti Keshav Daile send garnubhayeko Pictures Blog ma save gareko thiye ani tyo print garera Thulo aama lai dinu parla bhanera Pen Drive ma halera mero Childhood ko pic pani pendrive ma halera Thulo banauna bhanera Manakamana photo studio ma lagera diyera ghara aayera thulo aama lai tyo pictures haru diye. Ani tyaha bata ghara aauda aaudai Aadarsh le call garyo "I am at your house" bhanera. Ani ghara aayera tyaslai bhetara Kathmandu kahile jane bhanera sallaha garera tyo ghartira lagyo. Ani ma pani Khana khayera room ma Radio sunera basdai thiye Bhim aaipugyo ani ek chhin ma tyo ghara gayo tara kakako ghar agadi pugera call garera malai bolayo ani ma pani tyatai gaye. Tyaha bata kakale factory tira jaau bhannu bhayo anityata bata farkera aauda aaudai Dipale 3/4 patak miss call gari, malai thaahaa thiyo ki tyo ma sanga kehikura garna chaahanchhe natra tyo yati miss call dine manchhe ta haina, tara kakako agadi call garna sakeraheko thiyina, ani Bhim ra Kaka guff garda gardai ma ghara aayera tyaslai call gare ta ekai chhin kura garera "la B'nu sanga kura garnu" bhanera mobile B'nu lai di. Ma ta shocked kina diuso samma bhet huda ramro sanga naboleko manchhe le phone ma k kura garna khijeko hola bhanera?Phone paaune bittkai " Aaja diuso maile Ignore gareko jastai bhayo hola hai? Sorry la? malai sancho thiyena k tyahi bhayera ho sorry la" bhanera bhani. Ma ta danga pare ani po thaaha paye ki diuso tyaahaa jada khera Dipa le "oe yatai aayera bas na kina tyata pati room ma baseki? yata aaunu hunna ra?" bhanda "haina k tyata saguro bhayeko bhayera yatai baseko ho" bhanera haami bhayeko room ma aayeko thiye. Ani maile pani " ma yatti saano kura ma mind garne type ko manchhe haina ni, tyahi pani maile yo kura ta notice nai gareko thiyina" bhaneko matrai thiye feri "aaja diuso malai sancho thiyena k tyasai bhayera ho, sorry la, sorry la, ani maile euta sms pathayeko thiye paaunu bhayo?" bhaner sodhi ani maile "Aaha payeko chhaina ta " bhanepachi "ekai chhin ma aauchha hola" bhaner bhani. Ani feri Dipale mobile liyera "yasma mero kehi haat chhaina hai?" bhani. Ani maile "haina kehi chhaina maile mind gareko chhaina bhande hai" bhanera call katidiye.Ekai chhin pachi maile tedha lai "Oe Tedha mero dimaag nkharaab nagar ta, timiharu dui jana milera mero khub Khichadi pakaako chha hai? mesej send nai nagari pathako chha bhanne? saathile pathako ta 2 sms aaisakyo" bhanera sms garidiye. tara reply na aaye pachi maile call garda ta balance nabhayera reply nagareko hai bhani. Tara sms ta pathako nai ho bhani. Ani diuso tapai aauda ramrari bolna napayeko bhanera naramro lagyo re ani "asti raati raati pani hamilai puryaauna aaunubhako thiyo tara aaja ma kaha aauda ma ramrari bolna pani paiyna bhandai thi" bhani ani maile pani "la la tension lina pardaina re maile mind garya chhaina bhande hai" bhande. ani call katidiye.Ani kura aayo aajako. Bihana lever gayeko thiye miss call aayeko bhayera call gare ani Dipa le receive garera "tapai bajaartirai ho ki bhaneko ta haina" bhani ani B'nu lai diyera kura gare ani usle "ho rahechha sms ta gako rainachha" bhani ani maile pani "tyahi sms aaja pathauna sakidaina ra?" bhane pachi "huncha hai ta ma tyahi sms aaja send garchhu" bhanera call tungiyo.Ani ekai chhin maa sms aayo ani padgeko tayasto thiyo " Hi its me b'nu. today m'not so well and fill sad. so i cant response in your attendance. (Hi how r u? yo sms hijo ko no bata copy garera send gareki) lekheko rahechha ani maile pani ekai chhin sochera yasto sms reply garidiye................. Mero khabar ta jahile panijhakkas ta ho ni. Ani really i le ta notice nai gareko thina "RESPONSE" nagareko & testai bhaye pani "ma til ko pahaad chadhne manchhe haina k" bhanera reply garidiye ani ajhai mkiss call ko aadan pradan hudai chha.

Thursday, July 31, 2008, With Pradip

Asti malai ekdumai guilty feel bhayo. Kaka ko gharmaa puja thgiyo ani bike kahile maile kahile bhim le ani kahile ram le ta kahile Pradip le chalayeko thiyau. beluka ma milk ko can ho ki k ho puryanua jana lageko belama yesso bike ma baseko ta bike ko handle bango bhaye jasto lagyo ani hereko ta side light pani futeko rahechha. Bharkharai Pradip le kamal Bhinaju lai puryayera aayeko bhayera maile pradiplai kaha thokkayera liyera aako bhanta bhanera sodhe ani kaalo face lagayera fissa hasyo ani Ashok dai le haina agi Pradip janu bhanda agadi nai futisakeko thiyo maile ta dekheko bhane pachi sabai ko agadi k halla gari rahanu yo p[radip le nai futayeko ho bhanera maile dherai sodhina. Ani batoma aaye pachi maile tyaslai sodhe kaha thokkayeko bhanta? bhanda haina dai tapai mero exam nalinu ta bhanyo ani maile hakaarera thulo kura nagar muji taile thokkayeko bhanne maile tero face ko expression batai thaha pai sake bhanera jhapare. ani rame lai pani phone garera ani ajhai bhetara sodhda pani haina yar maule bhaye ta bhanihalthe ni bhanyo. Ani balla balla 2 din pachi Bhim le maile ghar ma lagera rokera rakhda stand dabera dhaleko ho yar, bhanyo ani malai sarhai guilty feel bhayera Pradip laai aayera kura garepachhi ali haluka bhayeko jastai bhayo.

Malai pani man Thiyena

Malai Pani man thiyena ki tyo manchhe sanga tadha hune dusshaas garau jo sanga ma yati najiki chhu ki sayadai life ma aru sanga huna sakaulara yati biswaas garaula. Maile kaka lai ek din sodhrko thiye ki yo thekka patta ma lagna kunai special study garnu parchha kaka? But I forgot whwt he replied butnow I am realising that I am not being able to become that what I want.I dont know how the faith took place between us, specially from my side, at that time also when I was too young to understand the value of relationship between relatives and neighbour.Once I remember clearly, that he was trying to something with his radio but that got blasted and he asked me not tell anybody about it. but after sometime i came out of the room and people outside that room asked me about that and I was trying to cover that case but I found he was laughing at me sitting at my side because he had already told about that to them. Those moments are clearly stored in my mind when I used to stay at his old house with him because he always used to call me and talk about mahile thulama and thulbaa's discussion they made during their sexual activities because he was prying them those days and eruct in front of me without any hesitation.Now I think that there is my another fault because I never object him from his any kind of activities although I thought that was wrong. So that, I think I was, and I am not alive "Sujit Bidari" but a senseless "Robot" which does any kind of activities according to his wish and command.In fact in my opinion a person searches his own identity in a fixed period of age whether he is in shelter of great personality. I dont know that, that incident will drive me fully oposite side. If I knew that I havent told it to Sunita sis because when I tolt her about Lother's incident she told me that he think that he can do anything on u without any hesitation but i told her that he was drunk heavely and not only me he was hitting everybody there. But I thought that case again and again, and hearing Ranavat Dai I came to this conclusion that I was nothing for him.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Today I realize that how much i am influenced by him and his family now a days i use to answer like that " I think yes", "I heard so" when somebody ask me about him and his situation. Because from few days ago I started to think that i am not from his family to find his every steps and situation so that i use i think so and i heard so though i know everything about him.Now a days i am fighting with myself for my own identity. malai ramrari yaad chha ki ma sanai chhada jaba kaka gharma hunthe ma unle j bhane pani nai bhandina the ra thokuwa garera ahile pani bhanna sakchhu ki aja samma pani kehi kuralai nai bhaneko chhaina. Ma tyo belama pani unlai tyattikai mandathe jaba uni kehi pani baneka thiyenan malai tyo sab kura yaad chha jaba ma uni sangai tyo purano gharma sutdathe kina bhane unilai eklai sutne baani thiyena ani arko kura ma sanga pani unle ti sabai kura gardathe jun aru sanga nagareko holan ani ma pani kasailai pani nabhaneko kura pani unailai bhanda the.lekhda lekhdai Deepa le call gari Aunt lai liyera uncle Bharatpur jana lageko re ma pani januparne bhannu bhayeko chha daile ma ahile hupra chaur ma chhu malai chittai lina aaunu na bhani tyasaile baki ek chin pachi lekhaula. Today I realize that how much i am influenced by him and his family now a days i use to answer like that " I think yes", "I heard so" when somebody ask me about him and his situation. Because from few days ago I started to think that i am not from his family to find his every steps and situation so that i use i think so and i heard so though i know everything about him.Now a days i am fighting with myself for my own identity. malai ramrari yaad chha ki ma sanai chhada jaba kaka gharma hunthe ma unle j bhane pani nai bhandina the ra thokuwa garera ahile pani bhanna sakchhu ki aja samma pani kehi kuralai nai bhaneko chhaina. Ma tyo belama pani unlai tyattikai mandathe jaba uni kehi pani baneka thiyenan malai tyo sab kura yaad chha jaba ma uni sangai tyo purano gharma sutdathe kina bhane unilai eklai sutne baani thiyena ani arko kura ma sanga pani unle ti sabai kura gardathe jun aru sanga nagareko holan ani ma pani kasailai pani nabhaneko kura pani unailai bhanda the.lekhda lekhdai Deepa le call gari Aunt lai liyera uncle Bharatpur jana lageko re ma pani januparne bhannu bhayeko chha daile ma ahile hupra chaur ma chhu malai chittai lina aaunu na bhani tyasaile baki ek chin pachi lekhaula.

Dherai pahila

maile yo dherai agadi lekheko thiye tara nabhyauna le post garna payeko thiyena ani aaj milayera aaudai chhu. Sandesh dai ko bihe agadi ek din kakale Uttam Dai aayo bhane x-treme bike diyera pathaide hai bhannu bhayo ani maile daiko bihe pachi diula bhane ani kaka lage pani bihema mage bhaihalyo bhannubhuo, ani 14th dec ma janta hidiyo. Janta jada ashok dai ko suit lagaune plan thiyo ani jane belama try gareko ta pant ta sano po bhayo ani suit ma leather ko pant lagayera gaiyo. ani bharatpur puge pachi tyaha ek chin saroj dailai moovie camera ma palo diyera ghumna niskera bhim ko mobile bata baneki kt lai bhetera open house ma momo khayera aaiyo, ani ek chhin ma bihe sakiyo ani gokul ra ma x-tream ma tyaha bata hidiyo ani kiran paudel pani dinesh dai sanga tyaha pugeko bhayera ashpok dai lai kiran dai ko bike chalauna lagayera tyaha bata hidiyo. ani lothar ma aayera 3711 dekhera tyaha khaja khana bike side lagaiyo ra sabai jana hotel bhitra chire tyaha kaka haru ra utsav dai haru pahilyai jaad khayera jhyap bhayera baseka raichhan ani ma ta bhitra chirna lageko matrai thiye chadyamma gala ma thappad hanyo ani yesso hereko ta kakale haneko raichhan ani kina haneko kaka bhane ta feri kassera dui choti hane pachi malai sarhai ris uthyo ani load shedding bhayeko bhayera bahirai kursima kuna ma garera basiraheko thiye dinesh daile line aaye pachi jabarjasti bhitra tanera lagyo ani bhitra chireko matrai k thiye yata bata utta utta bata yatta thelera malai dimakh kharab garaye ani ma rissayera bahira aaipugeko matrai k thiye ta muji malai dassing diyera kura garne bhandai ma sanga nihu khojna kaka aaye ani maile dassing diyera kura gareko chhaina aba arule thelda malai ;lageko bhaye ,malai thaha chhaina bhanera gokule lai oe gokul ta jaane bhaye aaijo natra m hide bhaneko matrai thiye ta mujile tyaslai thulo swor garera malai sunayeko ma chikni ta khub thulo manchhe bhais hai muji bhanera jori khojdai aaye ani bike start gareko matrai k thiye gokul aayera basyo ani hami dui jana matrai tyaha bat hinyau ani ashok dai bhim kiran dai ani dinesh dai tyahi basera khaja khana thale. Gokul pani achamma mandai thiyo kina kaka aaja yasto bhayeko yaar bhandai thiyo, hami bistari aaudai thiyao kaka ko gadi le hamilai overtake garera agadi aayo ani jaaun muji budhaharu bhandai haami aayau.Alikata agadi aauda gadi jaam bhayeko rahechha bharkhari suru bhayeko bhayera agadi nai pugiyo ani euta le bike side lagauna bhanyo ra side lagako matrai thiyau arko aayera dai yaha bharkhari gadile manchhe hanera jam bhayeko ho yo chadai khuldaina tapaiharu gaihalnu bhanya bhayera hami chahi tyaha bata bhagera aaiyo ani jyamire ma aayera ashok dai lai narisaunu dai malai tensino bhayera matrai aako malai pani tapain haru sanga nasta garna man lageko thiyo ni bhanera yata bata jadai gareko gadiko drivers harulai pani tyata jam chha dai najanu hola bhanera ek chin pachi ghara aaipuge. Ani ghara aaipugeko matrai k thiye Aunt le kakako gadile ta manchhe hanyo re ni ta bhannu bhayo ani balla po maile thaha paye tyo jaam ta kaka le manchhe hanera bhayeko raichha bhanne.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Gokul ra ma tyaha bata hide pachi ekai chhina ma hamilai tyo kaka haruko gadile overtake garyo ani hami maximum 45 ko speed ma aairahyau. Hami manahari katni bittikai thaha payau ki tyaha accident bhayera traffic jam bhayeko raichha ra tyaho ko banda garne manchhe le bike side lagauna bvhanyo ra side lagayau. Feri euta arko manchhe aayera tapaiharuko bike raichha bhagi halnus natra yaha raat bhari khulne chhatkaat chhaina bhanyo ra hami tyaha side batai bhagyau. Ani jyamire ma aayera masu chiyura khadai hetauda tira bata aayeko gadiko driver harulai tyaha bharkhari jam lageko chha najanu hola hai bhanyau ra maile tyaha bata Bhim lai call garera ashok dai risako hola hai bhanera soddha usle ashok dai lai nai phone diyo ra maile kura garne bittikai ashok daile " bhai ta tyasari gako malai sarhai naramro lagyo yaar" bhanyo ra male pani " dai ma tapailai bhetarai kura garaula ki ma kina tyaha nabaseko bhanera" bhanidiye ani manahari nera jam chha bhanera pani bhanidiye. Tyaha bata khaja khayera hideko ekai chin ma ghara aaipugiyo ra ghara aaipugne bittikai ta Aunt le ta kaka ko gadile manchhe hanyo re bhannuhunchha yaar ma ta fully shocked ani tyahi kura hudai thioyo Naresh dai bhai tyaha jau ta bhandai aaipugyo kina bhane gadi Newarpani check post ma rakhera uniharu alapatra pareko bhanera behula behuli liyera aayeko utsav dai ko sumo tyata pathjaidiyeko ra uniharule tyo sumo nabheteko bhanera tyata jaau bhaneko raichhan. Ani hami dui jana lewot ko oralhoma pugda pugdai aunt le call garnu bhayo ki gadi bhetera aaudai hunuhunchha re bhanera. Ani dhukka mutu liyera ghara aayeka matra thiyau feri Sumo ko Roshan Daile la la 2/3 jana hospital janu paryo Ashok ko bike accident bhayo bhandai aayo ra hattar hattar gardai sumo ma chadhera hospita gaiyo luckily khasai kehi pani chot lageko rainachha ra ekasi chinma x-ray garera ghara aaiyo.

Sandesh dai ko Bihe

Asti ek palta uncle le Uttam dai bike lina aayo bhane diyera pathaide hai bhannu bhayo ani maile Sandesh dai ko bihe pachi matra pathaula bhanera fakayera rakhe.Ani 14th december ko bihanai janta jana bhanera maile x-treame, Saroj daile Utsav daiko enticer ani ashok daile chauki ko prem dai ko pulser liyera maile bhim lai hale ashok daile gokul lai halyo ani saroj daile bishnu kaka (chitwan) lai liyera hidyau. Ani manahari nera pugera chana tarkari sangai egg khaye pachi gokul ma sanga aayo ani bghim ashok dai sanga gayo ra hami ekai chin ma bharatpur pugyau. Tyaha puge pachi Saroj dailai ekchhin Camera ma palo diyera ashok dai ra bhim sanga ma ra gokul pani bike ma niskiyau ra bato ma po thaha payau ki uniharu ta bhim ko mobile bata baneki kt friend lai bhetna narayanghat tira lageka raihechhan. Tyaha tyo kt lai bhetera farke pachi jagge ma sarhai ramailo gariyo, SAuman dai sanga milera tyaha behula behuli ko cheu ma basne euta kt lai maile hereko herekai garidiye ani tyasle pani malai herdai thi ra last ma po thaha bhayo tyasko name ta Srijan rehechha bhanne. Yattikao ramailo garda gardai bihe sakiyo ani tyaha bata hidiyo. Batoma KIran Paudel ra Dinesh dai pani bhetiyo. Kiran dai was driving bike an usko condition dekhera uslai bike chalauna nadiyera usko ambition bhimlai chalauna lagayera uslai ashok dai ko pulser pachadi rakhera dinesh dailai bhim ko pachad rakhiyo.
Ani lother aaipugiyo ra khaja khana bike side lagaiyo feri Kiran paudel le ey mula malai bhaile lother ma parkhera baschhu bhaneko chha tyaslai nabheti khayo bhane risauchha bhanera feri bike start garera agadi lagiyo ra 3711 Hylux lai dekhera rokiyo. Gadi rokeko hotel ma pasna pailo matrai agadi badhayeko thiye malai ta Chadyammmma galama yasto sanga hanyo ki male tyahi tori ko phul dekhe ani nyasso hereko ta kaka po raichhan ani maile malai kina haneko bhanera sodheko matrai thiye feri kassera dui palta dubai tira gala ma haane. Ani malai sarhai ris uthera a aayo ani jaau bhane pani ashok dai haru khaja khana bhitra basisakeko thiye ani load shedding bhayeko bhayera hotel ko bahirai euta kuna ma basi raakhe. Ani ekchhin ma line aayo ra dinesh daile malai dekhyo ra jabarjasti tanera bhitra lagyo, feri bhutra chhireko matrai thiye yata bata thelera utta utta bata thelera yatta garera dimag kharab garaye ani ma bahira niskera oe Gokul ma gaye hai ta aaune bhaye aaijo bhaneko matra thiye kaka ta " ta muji malai dashaing diyera kura garne" bhandai nihu khojna aaipugye ani maile pani malai thaha nabhako ra maile gardai nagareko kaam ma pani mero dosh hunchha bhanne mero bhannu kehi chhaina bhanera jhanakka ris uthyo. Malai sarhai ris uthisakeko thiyo ani jhokkera Gokule ai ta aaune bhaye aaijo natra ma gaye muji bhanera jhokkiye, feri ta mujile gokule lai thulo swor garera malai sunako ma chikni ta muji khub thulo bhais hai bhanna aaipugyo ra malai khapinasaknu ris uthera bike start gare ani gokule aayera basyo ra hami tyaha bata hidyau.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Yesterday I was in tension that much ki I didnt knew what to do and what not to. Because Rishi told me those words when I was going to apply for advancr payment against National Ice Cream plant's Job. And he was also waiting to meet Sivadasan. He suggested me that " It would better if you start voucher system to pay party and labours because hamilai Gangasoap ko ani Bishnu Khanal ko 2/4 hazar khayera kehi hunewala pani chhaina ani hamile khane pani hainau tara pani aafno side bata clear bhayera basiyo bhane pachi kehi lafada parda khera ta aafu chokho basna sakinchha ni haina ta?" After listening his that sayingI felt thata nuch bad ki I cant express. Because before that day Uncle asked me that how much we have left to pay ladies and I replied about 39000/- hearing that he got shocked and goe angry and told me " muji voucher system gar bhanda pani gardaina mero bichar ma ladies lai maximum tirna parne baki bhaye 20/22 hazar bhanda chhaina ta muji le ta malai dubayerai chhodne bhais hai". And I left HID for lever. And I think that he talked more about that topic after my departure so that Rishi suggested me like that.After that I decided to cancell our tour programme to Jomsom because we were going to have about one wwek tour of Jomsom we, Me, Bhim, Sanyasi, Amul, Kiran and some other friends. Malai lagyo yasto tensiom bhairakheko chha ,Dashain ma kati paisa haat parne ho thaha chhaina k jaanu ghumna? baru 5 thou bhaye ta bigriyeko tv banauna nai kafi hunchha jasto lagera aayo. Yastai sochdai bhimko ghara gaye mobile charger lina asti Indian Idol herda tyahai chodeko thiye but Ashok dai ra bhim ta dhok thunera blue film herera baseka raichhan ani maile bhim lai mero ta programme cancelled hola jasto chha yaar bhanera chargera liyera aaye. Ek chin pachi bhim aafai mero gharma aayera kina najana khojeko yaar? Timi nagaye pachi tama pani janna ani hami main jane bhanne dui jana nai nagaye pachi ta sanyasi eklai hunchha ani programme nai cancelled hunchha bhanyo. Ani maile pani sabai kura bhanidiye her 5000 bhaye ta k k kaam tarthto dashaima kati paisa aauchha thaha k jaan yaar bhaneko ta baru dashainma paisa pugena bhane 2000/2500 ma help garidiula yaar jahile sakchhau tirana bhane pachi bhane alikati halka feel bhayo.Tyaspachhi malai uncle ko gharma jana man pani lageko thiyena tyasaile Bhima kai ghartrira lage ani ekao chin baseka thiyau kancha bolauna pugyo daile boilaunu bhako chha bhanera ani ma pani aayera bhete. Bhetne bittikai kakale ladies ko hisab k bho bhanera sodhnubho. Ani maile kehi pani bhako chhaina bhane Factory maa aayeko bottle bhanda kaam gareko bottle dherai dekhairako chha maijuharule ani maile k garne ta? ani la la thikai chha bholi jasari pani milaunu ni bhannu bhayo. Malai tyaha bata katikhera niskiyau jasto bhairakheko thyo tara kakale Indian Idol ko website khiolera herna bolaye ani ekchin herera ghartira aaye. Malai tyo din nikai lekhna man lageko thyo tara gharbhari katai pani pen bhetina tyasaile kehi pani nalekhi sute.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Hiko Bishwakarma Poojako din ma ani uncle Deepak dai hid gayau pooja garnako lagi ani tyaha Nabin lai aaja mero birthday bhanepachi aaja ta paisa nabhaye pani Rishi sanga sapati garera bhayepani party ta hunai parchha hai bhandai thyo ani ma pani huncha ni ta bhanera ghartira aaye. Ani gharma aayera taas khelera basiyo ki katikhera Nabinle call garsh abhanera tara kurnu matrai bhayo kinaki usle call nai garena. Ani ghartira aayera disel ko statement lina Ashol dai, Bhim, Sanjaya dada jadai thiyau batoma Rabin dailai pani bhetiyo ani tyaha gayera magda statement napaye pachi farkere aauda Rishi, Nabin ani DD Sir haru Prakash daiko hotel bata farkadai rahechan ani ball maile thaha paye ki malai kina call nagareko rahechha nabin le bhanne kura.Ani ghartira aaudai garda kakalai pani chyatiyeko t-shirt lagayera bile ko backside ma basera aaudai gareko dekhe ani balla maile thaha paye ki kina agi maile statement dind manena bhanda kehi kurai nagari jassari hunchha malai aajai chahinchha bhanera call cut garidiyeko bhanne. Ani malai pani ris uthyo ki malai matrai k ko tenso tyas kaam ko lagi kamse kam kina dena, k bhayecha bhanera sodhna ta sakhthyo ni . Tara soche ki bhare aayera aaphaile gali khana parcha tyatti statement pani lyauna sakinas muji bhanera bhanthanera tyata tira lageko thiye. Tyo kura alag ho ki ma tyaha janthe ki jadaina thiye tara malai ek palta jau pani bhanenan, tara ma hijo kunai pani halat ma jadaina thiye kina bhane birthday ko din bhanera bihana khana pani khaina ani aaja vegiterian matrai khanchhu bhanera baseko thiye. Tara pani sangai ko saathiharule ramailo garda malai nabolayeko dekhda chahi kata kata naramro lagera aaudo rahecha.Ani tyaha bata farke pachi hami 5 janai gaiyo Prakash Daiko hotel tira aaja ekdum bhok lageko chha bhanera Rabin Daile bhanyo tyasaile. Ani tyaha jada kheri Sandesh Dai Ut6sav Dai haru pani farkadai thiye. Ani tyaha Sanjaya Dada, Bhim, Ashok Dai le non veg khaye bhane Rabin Dai Ra maile chahi veg nasta khayau. Paisa tirne belama maile tire kina bhane Bhim Ashok daiharule aaja ta birthday party bhanera halla gariraheko thiye tara Rabin Dai chahi Singapore jaan lageko bhayera ma afai pay garchu bhanera baseko raicha. Thikai bhayo jasle tire pani bhanera rati 8.30 baje tira ghar farkera aaiyo

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Aaja dherai din bhayechha update nagareko, tyasaile aaj man ma lageka kehi kura haru kekhau na ta bhanera aateko chhu aasha chha bichma kehi disturb hunechhaina bhaneraZindagiko 23th basanta paar garisakda pani ahile samma malai thaha chhaina ki yo laamo zindagi ko gadi katatira jadai chha bhanne? kahile kahi korea jana paye 2/4 barsa tyata bitayera aauna paye alai ali paisa kamainthyo ani yatai basera kehi garna pani sakinthyo bhanne jasto lagcha tara kahile kahi chahi korea jana nai paune ho ki hoina bhanne jasto lagera aaucha.Bastaav ma bhanne ho bhane ahile ma jun kaam ma involve chhu tyo pani naramro chahi hoina. but i am not quite confident on it. ma sabai kaam aafai garna tayar chhu tara kaamdaar nai kina nahos kaam arhauna apthero lagera aaucha. Ma boldai nabolne manche pani hoina, sathi bhai ko majh ma ma jattiko majaak garne ra funni manche pakkai pani chhaina tara kasto kasto ma aaphai bhannai sakdina. Asti bharkharai ko kurakaka ktm jane belama hero Honda X-treme bike malai dinubhayeko thiyo ani yo kasailai dinubhanda malai nasodhi dis bhane thik hudaina bhannubhayeko thiyo. Tara bholi palta Risile Simarama paisa tirna jaanu paryo bhanera magyo ani diyera pathaidiye. ma k sochthe bhane factory le kista tirirakheko biuke factory ko kaam ma magda maile kasari nadine? Tara kaka chahi maile bhanepachi nadena muji bhannu hunthyo. Pachi kaka aayera kam gali gareko haina "nade bhanda bhandai kina deko ta ?" bhanera. Ani bike magera lyaye. Pachi feri kaka ktm jane bela ma Rishilai bike chahiyo bhane Anna lifan magera matrai de hai muji?" bhanera jaanu bhayo. Tara tyo din pani Risi lifan nalikana aayo ani maile lifan khoi ta bhane usle Ananda daile laijanu bhayo bhanyo. Ra maile nadiyu ki jasto lagyo tara sakina ani diyera pathaidiye.

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Today I am trying to post some unforgetable events that took place on my life,and to make those events much rememberable I am trying to post an article related with them.1) Once ma ek palta school padhdai garda, sayad ma tyatibela class 2 or 3 tira thiye hola Diwash Sapkota ra ma ani arko ek jana I think that was Manoj Bartaula school bata halftime ma bhagera went for sweeming and jaba beluka school time off bhayo bhanne bela bhayepachi ghar aaye. Ani mom asked me where had u been? I replied " School" but she started beating me with the help of NAMLO because she saw baluwa on my pant. Ani maile tyo din yetti pitai khaye ki ma gharmai basdina bhanera rati 7.30 bajetira niskiye ani Tallotaal jharne batoma Chyangba ko aamako ghar mathiko piller ma gayera base. Tara Sunita didi went to persue me. Ani "her Sudip gharma Dadyle pani raksi khayera tyasto babal garchan ani ta pani yasari hinis bhane hamiharu k garne bhanta" Ani ma pani ek chin pachi ghar pharkiye.Aja friendship day bhayekole garda sathiharulai sms pathaunu chha through Wadja tyasaile baki arko din ma.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Hijo Keshav dai gharma aaunu bhayeko thiyo. He was meeting all of his relatives because he was going to leave Nepal for USA on 20th of Ashad. Dherai kurakani pani bhayo. The day before yesterday also i meet him on the way to market, he was waiting tempo to leave Goma didi. There also he started talking about study and such else and I got irritated and went saying I am in hurry now. But at that time I couldnt make any BAHANA so that I was compelled to listen him. He started "Why u left study?" I said the truth that there was the huge economical crysis, hearing that he said "Taile malai ek palta bhanis? Talai sittaima dina nasake pani kamayepachi tirne gari ta maile matrai haina arule pani dinthe tero hamro bauharule duniya jaad khana ra taas khelna rin paune tara hamile chahi padhna pani rin napaune bhanne chha ra????" Ho pani.Ani he said "listen bhai SAMASYA LAI BAHANA BANAYERA KAAM CHALDAINA pachi gayera tero aamale bhanda bahek kasaile pani bujhdainan ki taile paisako samasyale garda padhai chodis bhanda, aru ta k tero aphnai didiharule pani yo khattam manche tyatti pani padhna sakena bhanchan yo kura samjhirakh hai bhai " bhannu bhayo. He also talked about himself and showed me the example of him, how thulo thulba disturbing him from the way he is going to study and his plan to marriage. He said again "Her bhai ta hamile tero hamro baulai sudharna sambhav nai chhaina kina bhane janmera yattika barsa uniharule yastai parama gujaraa garisake ani ta hami bhaneko uniharuko jeevan ma asti bharkhar aayeko ta honi hamile samjhayao bhane ta k sochchan ta aaphai sochna. Baru ramro sanga hernu dady yasari chalauna garho parcha bhanera halka sanga samjhaune kosish jasto garne matrai ho jhan thulo thulo sor garera tharkayera taha lagauchu bhanyo bhane jhan kura bigrincha hai bhai bichar gar."Ani maile ktm icecream plantma job ko pani kura gare ani pheri bhane " Tyo jattiko ramro ta kehi hudaina tyo kaam bhaneko fixed time job ho, time ma padhna paiincha talai ktm ma basna pani garho hudaina bhanjaharu mero kothama basirako chhan bhane ta gayera basna hudaina ra tin barsa mehenat garera padh ani bachelor clear bhaye pachi ielts toefl garera Australia try garna kasle bhanyo garho huncha bhanera ekdumai sajilochha Australia janako lagi " Yati kura sune pachi malai pani Icecream plant ma job garera padhne bichar aayeko chha.

just writing nothing

Vastaavmai garho rahecha yo zindagi bujhna lai kahile kasto sochai, kahile k garne aat? ani kahile kahi ta yo zindagi dekhi nai biraktiyera audhaha bhayera aaune , lagcha ki yo umer kai dosh ho. Sachchai bhanne ho bhane " I am a great victim of dipression" I think because whenever malai kunai pani kaam ma alikati pani tension bhayo bhane "yasto tension kaam I cant do it" but there are no other way so that compelled to contineau that particula job. Only I know ki kati palta maile nepal lever ko kaam aba ek chin pani gardina bhanera man mareko but jo kohi pani mero tyo kaam ko positive aspect ko barema alikati matrai pani explain garidiyo bhane a yo kaam bhanda ramro kaam ta ma k pauchu ra bhanne jasto feelings aaune.When now a days I think deeply about my job I am satisfied because I havent any loan though I have complitted tow huge responsibilities of Boby's marriage and Mom's operation. Honestlo saying Sunita didiko bihe ma ta maile dherai tenson linu PARENA SHE HERSELF IS A GREAT PERSONALITY ON NOT ONLY ON MY VIEW BUT ALL WHO KNOW HER THINK SO. HAVING SUCH TENSION SHE DICIDED TO GET INGAGED WITH UTTAM BHINAJU .ZINDAGIKO 23TH BASANTA PAAR GARISAKDA PANI MAILE AHILESAMMA THAHA CHHAINA KI YO LAMO ZINDAGI KASARI BITNECHHA BHANNE. KAHILE KAHI KOREA JANE ANI 2/4 BARSA TYATAI BASERA AAUNA PAYE ALI ALI PAISA PANI KAMAINTHYO ANI YATAI KEHIA GARNA PANI SAKINTHYO BHNNE SOCHAI PANI AAUCHA, ANI KAHILE KAHI ARU NAI KUNAI DESH PO JANE KI PANI BHANNE LAGERA AAUCHA. BASTAAV MA BHANNE HO BHANE AHILE MA JUN KAAM MA INVOLVE CHHU TYO KAAM PANI AAPHAI MA NARAMRO KAAM HAINA. BUT I AM NOT QUIET CONFIDENT ON IT. MA SABAI KAAM AAPHAI GARNA TAYAR HUNCHU TARA ARULAI KAAM LAGAUNA MALAI EKDUMAI GARHO LAGCHA. MA BOLDAI NABOLNE MANCHE PANI HAINA , SATHIHARUKO MAJHMA MA JATIKO JOKER KOH PANI CHHAINA, BUT KASTO KASTO MA AAPHAI BHANNA SAKDINA. ASTI BHARKHAR KO KURA UNCLE LE KTM JANE BELAMA MALAI CBZ BIKE CHODERA JANUBHAYO ANI KASAILE PANI YO BIKE MAGYO BVHANE MALAI NASODHI NADE BHANNUBHAYO TARA ARKO DIN RISHI AAYERA SIMARA BANK KO PAISA TIENA JANU PARYO BHANERA BIKE MAGYO ANI UNCLEKAI CALL GARE NALAGEPACHI DIYERA PATHIDIYE. ANI UNCLE KTM BATA AAYERA SODHNU BHAYO KHOI N\BHANERA MAILE BHANIDIYE ANI BEKAARMA GALI MATRA KHANU PARYO. EK PALTA GALI KHAYE PACHI TA NADIYE HUNTHYO NI TARA SAME CASE HAPPENED AGAIN AND AHILE CHAHI SANJAY KO BIKE CHODIDIYERA CBZ MA LOCK GARERA JANUBHAYEKO CHHA.

aaja, bharkharai lever bata aayera online ma baseko matrai thiye uncle ko phone aayo, maile call garda contact nabhayera sms garidiyeko thiye ki transportko bill laxman maharjan ko ma lageko usle agreement herepachi according to your agreement timiharuko bank balance rahenachha bhanera Bhaumik lai phone garera sodhyo ani Bhaumikle we cant pay without the bank balance of nrs 3 lacks and I called him and contact nabhayera sms gareko thiye.Ani yata payment pani tannai garnu chha Ram mama pani pausa magdai thiye ani yata adhikari hardware ma pani 20 thousand dinuparne ma 12 thou matrai diye ani aaune 1 week ma baki payment garidinchu bhaneko chhu. Ajha Ujjwal furnitureko ta phone aauda pani receive garekai chhaina. Mamale pani Bishnu dailai bhanera tyo 15 hazar chahi milaideu na bhanda hunuhunthyo kata kata matrai ilaunu ??????? Ani bharkharai uncle le call garera Indra dailai gayera bhet ani bank guarrenty liyera bill de bhannubhayo tyasaile aba malai janu chha.

just nothing special

ani ktm jane din maa uncle le unt sanga tero yasto kura hudo raicha tyso bhaye ta nai bhande la bhannu bhayo. ani maile pni bhandiye ki hernus kaka yadi tapainle mobile maa nana tharika kt haruko no. ra sms narakhne ho bhane aunt ko tenson 90% kam huncha k gharma basne manchelai pani garo huncha ni akal tapain gharma bhand bahira dherai basnu huncha ani k garda hun kasari basda hun ta yassai pani lagihalcha ani tyas mathi duniyathariko sms dekhe pache ta sanka ta badhihalcha ni haina ta nhane ani usobhaye ma euta kt ko pani no ani sms rakhdina baru yo mero ko sim ma rakchu bhane tara rakhdina chahi bhanenan bhdha le. tara jahasamma maile bujhya chhu ki uncle pahila bhanda dherai controlle maa aayeka chhn. ani budhale ma sanga yo sabai kura bigarne saala sanjaya ho ma chikni. bahira gayeko belama drinks kasle gardaina ra tara maile gare bhane chahi turuntai gharma khabar aaihalne kasari ta aruko gharma khabar aaudaina ra thaha pani hudaina ra gharma naramro hune ta chansnai bhayena tara gharma kura lagaune manche bhayepachi ta naramro tyassai pani hudo raicha bhanthe.

आजकल म केहि

aaja Utsav Dailai paisa sinuparne thiyo tara lever ma Ram k.c. lai bhetera yeko aaja hudaina bhanera tun tun ko matrai checque diyo tyahi deposite garna aayeko belama cyber chireko. Asti Venzoo lai oline maa bolyeko thiye, tyo bazarmaa sathikoma baseko 3/4 din bhaisakeko thiyo ani sms khubai chalekole garda pradipe le online bolaunu na bhaneko le garda maile online bolayeko thiye. Ani 1.30 ghanta jati chat garera ghara farkiye. euta kura ma k lejhna chahanchu bhane pahile pahille maile Venzoo ko barema k kasto soche bhanne malai nai thaha chha ra ma aba tyo samjhana pani chahanna ra aaja bholi oo pani malai dai bhanera man ma lageko harek kura nahichkichai bhanche ani ma pani meri pyari bahina bhanera jug halidinchu ani oo pani makhkha parche ni malai pani ramailo lagcha. Ani aaj uncle ktma bata aune re, aajkal company ma economical crysis yati sarho chha ki kurai nagarau............ ujjwal furniture ma pani pallet banayeko paisa tirnu parne aaja bihana 5 call garyo tara maile receive garena, ani utsav dai pani malai 1.15 lakh de bhabdai chha tara ma sanga 0.5 lakh bhanda ek paisa pani chhaina budha kati risaucha bhanne thha chhaina. k garnu yastai ho kahole kahi. karobaar chalaunai paryo. Tyasmathi Uncle lai aaru tenson pani aailagirahane gharma aunt le pani nana tharika kura nikalera tapain ktm gayepachi sadhshai drink garera matrai basne ho ani kt harulai ghumayera sabbai pais khattam banaune matrai ho bhnera ek din naramro kura bhayecha ani uncle le malai tyallai samjhaidena yaar bhandai the tara 4/5 din dekhi aunt sanga khuler kura garnai payeko chhaina.

just contineauing the same

And the smsing process was going on. One day when I was at Deepa's house she showed me a letter sent by him and after reading that letter I found a sentence very heart touching. that was like that " Does your bible says dont love this Anil Bidari" and after reading that the view of mine toward some people,(I dont want to write the name) changed autometically.My view to those people before reading that letter and after reding that letter was totally different. I can say that nobody can change ones view toward another like mine untill that person face the same situation that I have faced. I said to that person that "I Have totally different view toward you after reading this letter" and the person replied " Thank God at list this letter brought a single positive change on you".After that oyr smsing pocess was going on and on. He used to say me "Bhai plz Deepa lai letter lekhna bhanana yaar" ani ma chahi Deepalai sms dekhayera Deepa" j bhanera lekhe pani kamse kam reply ta gara " bhanthe ani U chahi maile sms bata reply garisake bhanthi. ONE day when I sms Deepa like that "Deepa did You reply Anil Dai on letter, reply hai" Here I wrote "Reply hai " I mean that reply my sms but she understood " I am forcing her to reply Anil Dai. After some minuts the reply came like that "La la ma bhole reply grchu tara I can't love him". Ater reading that sms I felt very bad because she is thinking that I am forcing................ And next day I went to her house and said all the things I have thought but she replied laughing " NO man I didnt think such badly as you think".The day after that day Anil Dai smsed me that " Bhai maile chodi diye, maile call ra sms garda d lai dukha huncha re ra ma mero tarpha bata uslai dukha dina chahanna" I was shocked how fast he changed his mind and next day I asked Deepa and she said all the thing that she had tell him not to call her and not to disturb him. After some day dai sent me one message " k ho bhai D le wasta garina bhanera timile pni matlab garba chodi diyeko?" And the above things happened during the same period when Deep ignore him. Maile pradeeplai pani Anil Dai ko tyo sms dekhayeko thiye jasma malai pais achahiyema bhana bhaneko thiyo ani maile Daiko gharma thaha paye bhane naramro huncha bhanera arkai maan ma save gareko theye tara Pradeep le tyo sms nai delete garna suggest garyo ani maile tyo pano delete gariydiye.Now I am thinking that he was just using me to convence deepa but I was such a fool that couldnt understand the truth. Ok I will write other things next day.

Talking about Anil Dai

In fact I was not expecting any money from Anil Dai but when he asked "is everything ok there?" I answer the real thing without expecting any economocal help from him. He himself offered me money and said that. But now I am feeling very guilty because I couldnt understand his formal language and it would have been beter if I have said " no thanks Dai I have enough money for mom's operation".Few months ago I dint have his mobie no. but he was smsing Deepa on her mobile freequently and there I found his no. My first sms to him was like that " Paanima haina baluwaama lekhincha zindagi,Tara pani ekai laharle metinchha zindagi" which I have heard on the t.v. programme "Dishanidersh". He couldnt recognize me coz I have written Dari Bidari on that sms. Feww days letter when I was at Pradip's house he called on Deepa's mobile and pradip started talkng ant at that time I also talked and he knew that sms was sent by me and we sterted smsing. He was expectimg some help from me to convence Deepa because he was in love with Deepa but she was not intrested on him. When he was in Nepal at that time also I was helping him by talking with Deepa about him and telling him what she said with me about him.Thoiugh I have deleted each and every sms o him I have his every sms in my mind. sometime he use to send like that,"k 6 bhai khana khayau? ma ta ahile duty maa. ahile yata bihana ko 8*30 bhayo" ani sometime " her bhai tero daile jiban maa ekai janalai maya garyo duniyako saara khusi uskai poltomaa bichchi dinchhu plz samjhaide na yaar".